Break Up Tip # 1

KEEP BUSY. So today marks day 2 of not talking to 'Bryce'. I am actually feeling OK about this because I know I am going to be ok and sucessfull. Bryce on the other hand is not doing to well and I know this for a fact. A few days ago he invited me over to watch a movie and so I made the 30 minute drive to my old 'home'. I opened the fridge to find all the old food and leftover dinners that I had made rotting away in the fridge. I went to get a drink and every beverage in the fridge has expired! I had a bouquet of flowers on the kitchen tables sitting in a vase when I left, the flowers were still there - completly dried out, the whole house needed to be dusted, there was no toilet paper, my plant was dying and obviously hadn't been watered since I left. So I decided to leave it that way. Allthough I admit I did water my plant and move it into the sunlight and I did dump out on expired soy beverage. So after seeing that state that he was living in it became obvious to be that he is not as OK as he claims to be. That makes me feel better. Anyways, today keeping with the theme of my breakup tip # 1 I kept busy. I went out for lunch with one of my best girlfriend, hung out at the beach and then did some shopping. It was lovely. The only thing that some what bothered me about today is when we were discussing her future wedding plans (She is engaged & getting married next year). I asked her how many people she had on her guest list, she replied 70 well minus 1 now!! BIIIIIIIIIIIITCH do I need to be reminded of that? Anyways I admit it was a mildly funny joke. So on to day 3 and the rest of my life. I have made a goal for myself for the next year. I have the looks & I might as well use them right?! As vain as that may sound. My goal is to get on a billboard within the next year. Who knows, as silly as that may sound that is my dream. We all have them but as we get older I think people tend to forget about them or atleast try to. I saw an inspirational man named Randy Pausch on Oprah a few weeks ago and as passe' as that may seem something he said really did stick with me. He was diagnosed with a terminal cancer and he gave a parting speech to some of his students and he re did the speech on Oprah. One of the things amongst many inspiring things he said was to follow your dreams. Now like most people I have heard this before but when i heard him talk about it I realized I needed to get back to my dreams as well. So as stupid sounding as it may be this is what I want and this is my goal for the next year. I had this thought once before when we were living in a foreign country and I was getting into some modeling and acting but Bryce decided to leave his job there so we left early and since then I haven't been doing much to get back into that industry. So with a hopefull heart I enter a new place in my mind.